Sunday, November 27, 2011

Adoption

Dear Sam,

At playgroup yesterday a dear friend helped me explain to her daughter you are adopted.  It took my breath away as sometimes I forget.  Since it was my first time having to explain to a child you are adopted I was falling over my words.  Luckily, a wise friend stepped in and helped me.  Her words delighted my soul. She told her daughter that your birthmom did not think she could be the best Mommy she could be so she picked the very best parents for you. I hope I can live up to that as your Mommy.

Your birthmom did and does love you, Sam.  More than you will ever know.  More than I will be able to tell you. She  gave you the world.  I just get to watch you enjoy it.  You gave you life. She made me a Mommy.  She is my hero.  I know you will be able to meet her, if you should choose. I hope you do. She is an amazing person, Sam.  Her love for you will never fail.

As your Mommy I will continue to teach you about your adoption, what it means and be better able to explain the words in my heart.  I hope I can live up to the words of my dear friend and be the best Mommy I can.  I love you with all I have!

Love always,
Mommy

Sam's Christmas Photo Shoot

He loves to have his picture taken and this time was no exception.  He smiled, posed and laughed all on cue!  It was a great time for all of us!  Here are the cute results...












Thursday, November 17, 2011

Sam wanted to go school...

...in my shoes and his jammies.  And no, it was not a school day!

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Thankful Thursday

After a long week of emotions, feelings of loss, and coming to grips.  I need to remind myself of the things I have to be oh so grateful for.

First and foremost, I am so thankful for my dear husband.   We are opposite in very many ways but together we make the most prefect pair.   James is my rock and biggest cheerleader.  I often wonder how I got so lucky to find him. I need to remind myself of how lucky I am when he is driving me up a wall!

For Sam, he is a my hero and that is no lie.  He is talking so much now and the conversations we have make me smile, giggle and cry at the same time. I just can not believe how grown up he is. I love this little person! 

Wine, how I adore you.  You are my reward after long days.

7:15 pm I adore you, too!  As this is the time my non napping exhausted toddler is asleep.  The house is quiet and the day is done.

Playdates with great friends who keep me sane.

A simple text from a friend who somehow knew I needed to hear what she said.

My gym class.  You are a great stress reliever.  I never knew how much I needed this until this week.

My camera... its photos tell a story. My story... our story... the good and the bad. The story of Cole and Cate.  It tells the story of Sam. The story of James and I.  It tells me that through the lens I can capture the feelings of what is on my heart.  It tells me of how much I have and far I have become. It defines my purpose, my logic and my gratitude.

My Mom and Dad. I mean who else could you call when the day is going to hell?  And they are the best grandparents!

My in-laws! I know there are people who can not stand their in-laws but I am not one of them.  They treat me like a daughter and for that I am grateful.

My dear friends and double dates who keep me laughing!

Sleep..which is what I should be doing now. 4:45 am will be here soon.  Yes, folks that is when our day starts!

Off to bed with a thankful heart!