Best friends!

What are you doing right now...

 I have seen this on some of the blogs I follow so I thought I would fun to do!

Right now I am:

watching:  Up All Night (DVR)

eating: nothing but wanting ice cream!

drinking: water wishing it was a glass of wine!

wearing:Yoga pants, and and tee

avoiding: Putting Sam to bed

feeling: Overwhelmed
 
missing:  Jen...could use a girls night in Austin

thankful: for my family

weather: Cold

praying: For answers

needing: A girl's weekend. 

thinking: How I should go to the gym and run. 

loving: Listening to James and Sam play trains in the basement. Sam misses his Daddy when he travels for work. 

Cars

As anyone who has come by the house lately can tell you about Sam's obsession with cars.  They cover the living room floor, can be found in pockets of his coats and last night he took one to bed with him.  Add this to his second obsession, water and you have a great night of fun washing his cars in the kitchen sink! 

I am sure this is how sees me!

There are no words for what I feel today

Dear Sam,
My heart is overflowing with gratitude for you today.  As we danced to Christmas music you fell asleep in my arms and it was delightful Mommy moment for me. One that I will remember forever.
You are getting so big, Sam.  As I rocked you and watched you sleep it amazes me how big you are and how much you have grown up since last Christmas.  It seems like yesterday I was rocking a little baby and now I am rocking a little boy. 
While you slept tears rolled down my cheeks as gratitude poured though my veins.  Gratitude that you are healthy, happy, growing and smart.  Gratitude that I am your Mommy.  Gratitude for your fat little toddler hands and your beefy thighs. Gratitude for the little boy you are becoming.

Today, and always I will always be grateful to be your Mommy. 

I love you, Son! Thanks for a very fun afternoon.

Love always,
Mommy

Adoption

Dear Sam,

At playgroup yesterday a dear friend helped me explain to her daughter you are adopted.  It took my breath away as sometimes I forget.  Since it was my first time having to explain to a child you are adopted I was falling over my words.  Luckily, a wise friend stepped in and helped me.  Her words delighted my soul. She told her daughter that your birthmom did not think she could be the best Mommy she could be so she picked the very best parents for you. I hope I can live up to that as your Mommy.

Your birthmom did and does love you, Sam.  More than you will ever know.  More than I will be able to tell you. She  gave you the world.  I just get to watch you enjoy it.  You gave you life. She made me a Mommy.  She is my hero.  I know you will be able to meet her, if you should choose. I hope you do. She is an amazing person, Sam.  Her love for you will never fail.

As your Mommy I will continue to teach you about your adoption, what it means and be better able to explain the words in my heart.  I hope I can live up to the words of my dear friend and be the best Mommy I can.  I love you with all I have!

Love always,
Mommy

Sam's Christmas Photo Shoot

He loves to have his picture taken and this time was no exception.  He smiled, posed and laughed all on cue!  It was a great time for all of us!  Here are the cute results...