Wheeler Farm

Yesterday, Sam and I had a great time with our good friends, Armela and Liam at Wheeler Park.  We are blessed to have such good friends and neighbors.  The day was awesome full of puddle jumping, petting goats, chasing ducks and tractor riding.

We are adopting again!

We put our final adoptions papers again on 11 March  2010.  We submitted Sam's paperwork on the 11 June 2009.  We honor Cate by doing so as she was born on the 11 April, 2009.  The mound of paperwork, the Homestudy, and the reference letters are all complete.  Now we just wait and hope.


We received the following email from our caseworker last night:

Hi Nicole and James,

I just wanted to check in with you and let you know that we currently do not have any situations available. As soon as one becomes available I will give you a call and talk to you about it.

We know the wait could be very long and  hope we can remain patient in that wait. We do know that when the time is right another child will join our home.  

Baby number four we are waiting and praying for you!

Thanks for your prayers, 

Nicole, James and Sam
Always in our hearts Cole and Cate

Cole

Dear Cole,
Two years ago I held you in my arms and loved on you.  Two years ago I counted your fingers and toes. Two years ago seems like an eternity to me today.  I ache to hold you and count.  I am wondering who you would have looked like. I wonder what milestones you would be hitting.  I wonder if you would be running fast and chasing Murphy.  I wonder what words you would be saying. 
I wonder a lot of things, Cole.  Most of all I wonder tonight if you know how much I love and miss you.  I wonder if you know how we think about you and that you are never far from my mind.  I wonder if you know how much I wish you could have stayed.  I miss you, Cole.  I wonder if you know just how much.
I still love it when people say your name.  It  reminds me that they have not forgotten.  Please know I have not forgotten. We will never forget.
Happy Angel Day, Son.  We will celebrate your short life today with your brother. 
Keep watch over us all! 
Sweet kisses and loves!
I love you,
Mommy

Cole and Cate's video

Watching this tonight makes me realize how much I miss them both.  
http://angelbabymemorials.blogspot.com/

Off to go get Sam and bring him to bed with me.  I am so thankful for that little 24 pound snugglebug.  He can make all dark days brighter!

Tonight is a rough night...

Today I am not strong
Today I am missing the babies...Cole and Cate angel days are coming up too quickly
Today I am wondering if my heart is leading me in the right direction
Today I can not dig deeper
Today I wonder if we will be chosen again
Today I cry
There is always tomorrow....

Sam's first time on a bike