Unorganized thoughts....

Good day,
Wow... a lot has changed since I wrote the last post. Our babies are now home with us in Ziplock bags...how wrong is that?!? I miss my babies! I miss being pregnant and watching my belly grow. I miss knowing them. I miss James talking to them. I miss planning for them. I miss my little Cole and Cate but I thought maybe, just maybe, doing a blog would be an outlet for the love, loss, and hope that resides in me. Love... for the babies.. for my sweet dear husband( I can't imagine going through this without him) and everyone who prayed for our little family. Loss of so many things... babies...loss of innocence...oh, so many things. And finally hope. Hope for James that he will be a daddy... hope that one day we might have an answer...hope that one day we will have children running around with the dogs...hope that one day this blog will contain happy news... hope that my Dad will be a Grandpa (can you imagine how much teasing Dad will give?!?)... hope that Mom will be the doting Grandma that I can't wait to see (though she won't be called Grandma. She said that makes her sound so old)... hope for so many things.

Welcome

Welcome Family! I hope this is a place where you can find updates on us and bedrest tales. We appreciate all the love, support, calls, and cards that have been sent! This is also my journal so there there will be raw honesty on the love we have for Cole and Cate, the loss of Cole and hope that we have for our little girl.
I had an ultrasound before leaving the hospital and Cate is doing great! She is measuring ahead by a week and a half. She looks a lot like Cole with long legs, and my nose. Her hearbeat was 140. Dr Ball said she is a mover and shaker. James thinks she will be just like me...unable to sit still!

We love and appreciate you all. My nurses were all saying in order to make it through this you need family support and we sure have that! We are deeply appreciative for all of you!

Love,
Nicole and James